Noted and Forgotten

When hollowness creeps up on you in a sure steady pace and you're up against the wall of your skull knowing there is no way out and it is going to get you somehow, panic and frenzy ensues. Low of lows, emptiness flows through the chambers of your heart like liquid nitrogen; freezing the warmth of your blood that's been gushing through you with life. You recognize this experience of being down in the gutters of bleakness. You want to purge it out but it remains within your rectum like dehydrated stool in what seems to be the most glorious form of constipation. Enema falls short of being effective as it only manages to soften the outermost surface of the stool of emptiness and let the little washed out waste dribble out of the anus with no sign of total assuagement.  I use enema here as an analogy for short-lived life purposes I have seemed to have been engrossed in throughout these years. None have seemed to hold my steadfastness toward seeing it through to measuring heights...

We're all trapped in physical bodies on a pale blue dot floating in the vast space of nothingness. Systems built to keep us occupied and distracted from our insignificance and loneliness. Self-absorbed sentient speckles of dust surviving for the sake of survival; which all ends with good old cliched Death. An elaborate cosmic joke. What a grand design indeed. A purposeless grand design. BRAVA! GrymmRipper :] 

We have to stop seeing life in the light of duality; to abandon the dichotomy of be it emotions, values or anything in our reality really. When we analyze these dichotomies or have strong reactions towards them it feeds the ego in a positive feedback loop hence removing us from the chance to return to the most natural state of human psyche that is not concerned with the dichotomy of life. So when we do abandon it, the ego will be reduced significantly. I wouldn't say totally removed though. A small amount of ego will remain as long as we exist in this Maya. GrymmRipper :]